After probably half a dozen other iterations of this blog at other domain names, I decided to return to the domain name that came from something cute P said when he was about two years old. I decided to do this several months ago, and I quietly migrated the posts I wanted to keep from the other blog.
I regret having ever left Tickle the Sun, as it works for my purposes and I realize now in leaving it, I was striving to be something other than what I am. I was trying to fit myself to the mold of other blogs I’ve seen around the web. I don’t fit that mold, though, and neither does my writing.
That theme of trying to fit other molds goes along with the journey I’ve found myself in with my photography as well: that of trying to fit myself into the mold of other photographers.
J is right: I don’t fit any mold.
Since re-establishing myself in this space, I have resisted the idea of sharing to social media. However, I know that in doing so, I’ve done the very same thing I do in person. I have isolated myself.
These days, I struggle with purpose. I am a mom and a homemaker, yes, and I am thrilled to have the opportunity to be those things. However, I’ve long known I need something else in which to invest myself– something to express who I am. The blogs have fit that purpose, though in censoring my thoughts, I have done away with a lot of the expression I need to do. That has made living into that purpose very difficult.
So, here I am, reintroducing Tickle the Sun again. My goal with this site is to truly be myself more often, hopefully with the side effect that it transfers more into my real life, and to censor myself less often. That doesn’t mean loosening my sharp tongue and thoughts on the world. Quite the opposite; I want to remind myself about the good things I have in my life and to give myself a reason to focus my efforts on my photography.
Thanks for reading.