High Stakes
Well, the tenth anniversary ring as referenced in the “Epoxy” post got fixed.
We have a stellar, very kind local jeweler who does in-store repairs who repaired the whole thing (including the resizing I requested) for $75.
I’m in an interesting place…..yesterday I spent the day nearly immobile, depressed. Today is the first day of school for Liam, my middle, and Oliver, my youngest. Liam is a senior in high school and Oliver is going into 6th grade.
So here I am, as Mom, trying to figure out where I fit in this world, in this family.
Not so much depressed today, but it is raining so maybe the weather aligned with my melancholy.
In my photography preferences, I lean toward the monochrome of this photograph. This photo was taken with my Fujifilm GFX 50sII and a Schneider-Kreuznach Cinelux-Ultra 85mm f2 projection lens. I told my Facebook friends some years ago when I posted a selfie with this combo that I would only shoot in black and white with this precise combo if I had the chance.
Well, now I have closed my photography business, so now I have that chance.
It’s never going to be that simple. Just like my life isn’t that simple.
I recently attempted an outside job and it just didn’t fit for a variety of reasons.
And, the stakes were indeed kind of high, given that I am on SSDI for bipolar disorder. I sort of needed the job thing to work out. I needed predictability, and the income.
So here I am at the drawing board, trying to figure out what I can make work and what doesn’t work.
For today, I know that getting my kids to and from school is good, and taking care of the house helps, and taking care of myself is paramount.
And, that is enough for today.
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